So, lately, I’ve become more aware of my intrinsic need to follow a feeling rather than a thought. For example, while I’m driving, I usually listen to talk radio, but today, I felt the need to listen to music instead. Now – that may seem really mundane and silly, but the way my brain conversations go, it’s kind of a big deal.
My brain: “Don’t spend the time searching for music. It will take energy. Just keep doing what you’re doing – you’re going to be at your destination soon anyway. “ OR: “It doesn’t matter what you’re listening too. Just leave it on and don’t make the effort. It doesn’t matter anyway.”
Wait a minute.
“It doesn’t matter anyway???”
What a load of crap that is. Yet, it’s kind of my default brain patterns. I’m sure there’s some psychoanalysis I could do to determine why, but, in the end, does it really matter? Doesn’t it matter more that I can at least recognize it now?
And, why is it a load of crap? Because if you want to make the very most out of your precious time on this earth, every minute of every day matters. If you value yourself, if you value your family, if you value the grass underneath your feet, it matters.